February 11, 2013
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詩篇 73:28
"但我親近神是於我有益"Psalm 73:28
"But as for me, it is good to be near God."How true is that. It's been a long time since I make it my regular activity to seek God in the morning. Even though I've been trying to do that this week, I was really only successful 2 days out of the whole week. But what difference it makes! As I draw near to God, I realize very instantly that He is the ONLY ONE who can ever get rid of the dark areas inside my heart.... to change me entirely. I've been trying to use my self will to get rid of all sorts of evils inside of me, but it seems entirely impossible to get rid of the root. When I draw close to God, I feel like He just changes me entirely from the inside out.
Some other thing I realized lately is that.... to my shame, I am more concerned about my popularity than about Jesus' popularity. I water down the gospel and Jesus so much so that I preserve my "image" in front of others at the expense of God's truth. Watched a sermon today and one thing the preacher said that really convicted me: "Jesus is not a means to an end. He is the end." I realized how often I play down the whole Christianity and Jesus to non-believers so that "Jesus" sounds more acceptable to them. "Just pray to Jesus and He'll help you get ______." "Oh, don't worry about that, God will help you, just trust in Him and your ____ will be ok." I am afraid of telling people that what Jesus really want from them is for them to give up their lives and follow Him. I try to play it down that they're still growing to the point of wanting to follow Him, when Jesus says in the Bible that it's all or nothing. When someone says whether it's ok to follow Him halfway, Jesus will say it's all or nothing. Really need to come back and draw close to Him daily to change me inside out.... because there is no me without Him.
